I provoked someone

I didnt know how i enraged my friend,
It was an issue of trust and friendship.
It didnt go well.

At first,
I trusted him with all my heart.
As time goes by,
the trust that i have for him,
went astray.
In return for my friendship and trust
He accused me.
It wasnt long that he somehow betrayed me,
Well...it was imminent.
He did not completely betray me,
He exposed a crack in me,
to someone else.
A small crack in a glass,
will eventually break it completely.

People's mind are unpredictable,
He reveals one small crack,
Who knows how it will end up.

Accusation continued,
Suspicion between two of us.
It was his final straw,
He had enough.
I think i might have ravaged something,
in him.
I provoked him.
I dont know what to say,
Should i be the one who should be mad,
Or him?
It was clearly him who made the 1st move,
He took action instead of discussion.

After he left,
i felt empty.
My thoughts went blank,
Completely.
It doesnt seem it happened.
All my cares for everything about me

And him,
disappears.

In every story ,
Whenever death comes around,
An angel will descend at some point.
It is as though they are burdened to deliver bad news.
Something as graceful as an angel,
Was burdened to take a soul,
Leaving the soul's companions,
with grieving mourns.

Maybe im the same,
Im burdened with my secrets,
Whenever they leak,
My companions shall carry one of my burden.
In the end,
They'll end up in fury and sadness.

*Hey, sorry man ...
i dont know if i should be the one apologising,
but....i dont know...i dont care about it anymore
Well....for now i guess...
Maybe my patience's limits are beyond yours,
And you have reached it,
but i have yet,
Even though u keep pissing and annoying me,
for so long......it did not come close to my limit.....
Truce?
 

School starts over

The holiday ended,
My enjoyment eventually faded.

Being in school,
Makes me look like a fool.
Friends seem so unreal,
Threatens, False Statements,
Yet again repeated.
Although i accepted them with equaminity,
My heart rushes with anger.
I dont aspire to hurt,
But i emanated dislike.
It continues,
It was futile to retaliate,
So i chose with Ignorance.
Guess what,
More insults.

It was the first day,
Classmates are full of joy,
with tales to tell.
Continuous of cacophony in the class,
It doesnt bother me much.
It's good to see them so joyous,
I kept sullen,
Observing every single events that happen.
All i can see are laughter.
But that doesnt last too long though,
With the announcement of results,
made some of the students
sad and some rejoiced.

So the day ended with elation and lamentations.
 

CampFire

It was the best night i ever had,
The rain almost ruin it,
but some of the incidents make it joyous.
the only thing i regret,
was not bringing a camera.

There were singing, dancing, jokes, and a fesyen show.
Im only interested in the singing and dancing,
The singing soothes me and watching them sing,
it made me amazed.

While the performances were commencing,
i saw 1 couple actually sitting closely,
on the 2 storey high bamboo built fortress ( kinda).
I wonder what they are doing,
You?


Later, we got to let ourselves go wild and dance,
Most of the girl guides had their fun.
I didnt really dance like them,
i just blended in a little.
It was a few dances,
they keep telling the crowd to come,
upfront to the stage to dance.

In the 1st dance,
i actually saw one of my primary schoolmate,
Hahas,
She was having fun.
At least i get to see one of the many,
scattered primary friends.

Something surprised me though,
in the following dance,
A girl guide hit me on the hand while im dancing.
What was that about,
i think she must have regconise the wrong person.

But the most interesting thing has yet to come,
You think the campfire its just having fun !?
Well,
You're wrong.
1 of my friend, lets jus call him, WY.
He liked a girl and she was here.
The girl sms-ed him to go into the crowd and dance.
We didnt really know where she is,
and WY was clueless on how to dance.
As some of us went scouting for her,
some stayed advising him,
" Just jump and shake and have fun "

She was one of the groups of girls dancing,
One of other WY friends recognise the wrong person,
He told us it was her and we pushed WY to the group.
But it was not her,
how embarassing.

Finally we found her,
Again we pushed WY to her.
No turning back now eh?
After a few attempts of running away,
WY finally gave in and went for it.
You know what?
They held hands and danced together closely,
We were also there beside him to support too.
We dance a few songs away.
And in the end,
after the last song was played,
We shouted " Hold Hands"
(not that they are not holding already)
We wanted to make it more exciting,
To see them blush!

After that we all went back to our seats,
i dont really know what happen next,
Its up to him.
But the last sms i got from him,
when i asked him how was it,
was" Haha..lol..So dead"

Swept away by boredom

This maybe one of the few posts i'll have
in this holiday.

Something for my holiday and about someone anonymous trying to fool with me

My anxiety came to the end,
I've forgot how it was back then,
How the time passed in vain.
The time i await,
finally made it.
In this merry holiday,
My lifeless body lays.
It didn't go as planned,
With it im definitely chained.
I am somehow not appreciating it,
For  what had come upon me.
Time seems to fly,
When you are out of your mind.
Time seems to be slow,
When you're doing something you defiant.
Relaxation is the only option,
For my satisfaction.

Events happen without my notice,
A shadow lurked beneath.
Trying to destroy ,
Foolish me, he shall toy.
Thanks to a certain someone,
Fully revealing him he never did,
Being a betrayal to him he will not.
But to me ,he maybe,
Although i could not see.
He may even be the meister of all of it.

For the next few minutes,hours,days,
How many more moon lit night will there be.
We often hold dear to something we dont have,
Always casting aside what we already have.
So in this holiday,
I may feel bored filled with nothingness,
But i should really enjoy it ,
By being carefree .

Socialise?

Finally finished a motivation camp,
I did not want to go,
but since im bound to go,
i must well enjoy it.

At first,
i was assigned to a group of 5,
luckily they were only boys in the group.
3 of them were handsome,
1 was funny and the last was me.

Siting with them,
I was silent.
At the first sight,
in my heart was only that,
i acknowledged them,
they were superior as in looks.
So,
throughout the half day,
all of us kept quiet.
Somehow, we were all acknowleding each others,
Being cool,
Not making a ridiculous actions.

There are two types of persons,
One is the superior,
another is the inferior,
but this time,
it was seemly balanced.

Anyway,
the thing that break the ice was laughter.
The funny guy in the group made a joke,
About "gears" if you know i mean.
Yea~,
So eventually we got along with the jokes,
And got to know each other better.

I'll summarize it though,
The 1st is the handsome DotA gamer,
He got a nickname while in the camp,
" Pilot "
Another is also a handsome one
beholding the nick " Wu Jun",20 yrs old,
Let me tell you,
whoah, His gf is BEAUtiful .
1 was ..erm..i dont even wan to talk about him,,
the twisted things in his head.
Last was the funny guy.

Its a 3day camp,
We actually got the best group award,
how ironic is that?
At first,
we were silent and losing others with the game points,
Later we were owning like beyong godlike.

I think i did well in socialising,
but sadly not a single girl,
*sigh.....

School's Out

It has been hell of months since i online,
Exam's finally over.

But things keep coming up,
camps are inevitable,
projects are piling up.

Friends are all bothering their buisness,
What are they, im clueless.

Trying to have fun
as well as complete the tasks i have.
Joy and frustation,
dont really mix,
Wont i get mad sooner or later?

Anyway,
Im getting really annoyed by someone lately,
Preaching false statements against me.
I didnt really deny,
since it will somehow only leads me to
even worse situations.

Sometimes,
I shouldnt even say anything.
People want explainations,
but the answers you'll get from me,
are only yes or no,
take it or leave it.

We are all books,
with thousands of pages each filled with an irreparable truth,
It's best not to reveal of it right?

Memories

Went home after school,
I didnt actually went to my current home,
it was my old, previous home.

When i arrived,
Great memories circled my mind.
This is where i stayed for the twilight years,
it has been more than ten years.

This home reminds me of my prouds and regrets.
Pieces of the past 'me' were puzzled after im gone,
I tried to put them back together,
but some of them,
are lost and i just cant recall them anymore.
They remained vague reminiscence.

There are scars, vain attempts, sadness.
Wounds can be heal,
but once you are dead,
all that is left are nought.
Memories are the same,
No matter how you strived,
Once its forgotten ,
It's really gone.

Some of the good memories that i had,
when i was young,
were forgotten.
I was just too young,
Never able to remember the things i want to.
Now all i can do is just look at the photos once took,
But photos cant explain everything,
All there is are monotone imageries.

People say,
we should aim for the future.
But without past ,
there is no future.
We tend to change after every mistake we make.
How i wished to realised that more earlier,
Maybe i could have been more successful.

However,
we should also enjoy,
the life as a child,
people dont really care much about your foolishness.
That is when you are really free,
Unshackled by rules and feelings.
Sometimes its better to just forget than remember,
the past injuries, scars....