Swept away by boredom

This maybe one of the few posts i'll have
in this holiday.

Something for my holiday and about someone anonymous trying to fool with me

My anxiety came to the end,
I've forgot how it was back then,
How the time passed in vain.
The time i await,
finally made it.
In this merry holiday,
My lifeless body lays.
It didn't go as planned,
With it im definitely chained.
I am somehow not appreciating it,
For  what had come upon me.
Time seems to fly,
When you are out of your mind.
Time seems to be slow,
When you're doing something you defiant.
Relaxation is the only option,
For my satisfaction.

Events happen without my notice,
A shadow lurked beneath.
Trying to destroy ,
Foolish me, he shall toy.
Thanks to a certain someone,
Fully revealing him he never did,
Being a betrayal to him he will not.
But to me ,he maybe,
Although i could not see.
He may even be the meister of all of it.

For the next few minutes,hours,days,
How many more moon lit night will there be.
We often hold dear to something we dont have,
Always casting aside what we already have.
So in this holiday,
I may feel bored filled with nothingness,
But i should really enjoy it ,
By being carefree .

Socialise?

Finally finished a motivation camp,
I did not want to go,
but since im bound to go,
i must well enjoy it.

At first,
i was assigned to a group of 5,
luckily they were only boys in the group.
3 of them were handsome,
1 was funny and the last was me.

Siting with them,
I was silent.
At the first sight,
in my heart was only that,
i acknowledged them,
they were superior as in looks.
So,
throughout the half day,
all of us kept quiet.
Somehow, we were all acknowleding each others,
Being cool,
Not making a ridiculous actions.

There are two types of persons,
One is the superior,
another is the inferior,
but this time,
it was seemly balanced.

Anyway,
the thing that break the ice was laughter.
The funny guy in the group made a joke,
About "gears" if you know i mean.
Yea~,
So eventually we got along with the jokes,
And got to know each other better.

I'll summarize it though,
The 1st is the handsome DotA gamer,
He got a nickname while in the camp,
" Pilot "
Another is also a handsome one
beholding the nick " Wu Jun",20 yrs old,
Let me tell you,
whoah, His gf is BEAUtiful .
1 was ..erm..i dont even wan to talk about him,,
the twisted things in his head.
Last was the funny guy.

Its a 3day camp,
We actually got the best group award,
how ironic is that?
At first,
we were silent and losing others with the game points,
Later we were owning like beyong godlike.

I think i did well in socialising,
but sadly not a single girl,
*sigh.....

School's Out

It has been hell of months since i online,
Exam's finally over.

But things keep coming up,
camps are inevitable,
projects are piling up.

Friends are all bothering their buisness,
What are they, im clueless.

Trying to have fun
as well as complete the tasks i have.
Joy and frustation,
dont really mix,
Wont i get mad sooner or later?

Anyway,
Im getting really annoyed by someone lately,
Preaching false statements against me.
I didnt really deny,
since it will somehow only leads me to
even worse situations.

Sometimes,
I shouldnt even say anything.
People want explainations,
but the answers you'll get from me,
are only yes or no,
take it or leave it.

We are all books,
with thousands of pages each filled with an irreparable truth,
It's best not to reveal of it right?

Memories

Went home after school,
I didnt actually went to my current home,
it was my old, previous home.

When i arrived,
Great memories circled my mind.
This is where i stayed for the twilight years,
it has been more than ten years.

This home reminds me of my prouds and regrets.
Pieces of the past 'me' were puzzled after im gone,
I tried to put them back together,
but some of them,
are lost and i just cant recall them anymore.
They remained vague reminiscence.

There are scars, vain attempts, sadness.
Wounds can be heal,
but once you are dead,
all that is left are nought.
Memories are the same,
No matter how you strived,
Once its forgotten ,
It's really gone.

Some of the good memories that i had,
when i was young,
were forgotten.
I was just too young,
Never able to remember the things i want to.
Now all i can do is just look at the photos once took,
But photos cant explain everything,
All there is are monotone imageries.

People say,
we should aim for the future.
But without past ,
there is no future.
We tend to change after every mistake we make.
How i wished to realised that more earlier,
Maybe i could have been more successful.

However,
we should also enjoy,
the life as a child,
people dont really care much about your foolishness.
That is when you are really free,
Unshackled by rules and feelings.
Sometimes its better to just forget than remember,
the past injuries, scars....