Swept away by boredom

This maybe one of the few posts i'll have
in this holiday.

Something for my holiday and about someone anonymous trying to fool with me

My anxiety came to the end,
I've forgot how it was back then,
How the time passed in vain.
The time i await,
finally made it.
In this merry holiday,
My lifeless body lays.
It didn't go as planned,
With it im definitely chained.
I am somehow not appreciating it,
For  what had come upon me.
Time seems to fly,
When you are out of your mind.
Time seems to be slow,
When you're doing something you defiant.
Relaxation is the only option,
For my satisfaction.

Events happen without my notice,
A shadow lurked beneath.
Trying to destroy ,
Foolish me, he shall toy.
Thanks to a certain someone,
Fully revealing him he never did,
Being a betrayal to him he will not.
But to me ,he maybe,
Although i could not see.
He may even be the meister of all of it.

For the next few minutes,hours,days,
How many more moon lit night will there be.
We often hold dear to something we dont have,
Always casting aside what we already have.
So in this holiday,
I may feel bored filled with nothingness,
But i should really enjoy it ,
By being carefree .