Rescue me

Something about how empty i feel lately...i just keep daydreaming off,
And my friends are always there.

It is not good though,
i wrote it without any thought.

Once again i stood still,
In the midst of time.
Imprisoned behind my heart's grille,
Listening only to the mellow chime.

My mind totally empty,
Through night and into day.
I am faced with uncertainty,
Rescuing me were they.

They were always nigh,
Lending a helping hand.
Leading my continuous sigh,
Into an oblivious end.

They are my companions,
I shall say,
Thank you for rescuing me.

Tag game

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1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope

2. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Go back into my dreams without boundaries

3. Prefer to get a lover that love you more than you love him/her?
Nope, Love equally.( But maybe the guy should make the effort haha)

4. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Bonds with my friends

5. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Keep in my bank and let it grow

6. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Nope, maybe im just too cowardly

7. What type of movie you enjoy the most?
Fantasy

8. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Appearance and trust

9. What annoy you the most?
Restrictions in life

10. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or kiss?
Hug

11. Will you choose a guy who is good looking but not that smart / a girl who is not that good looking but quite smart?
Smart?? as in academically?? I choose trust

12. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Internet.

13. Will you join politics?
Not likely

14. Who is your best friend?
Have yet to meet him/her

15. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Self confidence

16. What's on your mind right now?
Loneliness which i enjoy sometimes and frustated about

17. What's the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
Nothing shocks me

18. What is the nicest moment that ever happened in your life?
When i sleep in tranquility

19. What do you hope for?
Everything in life goes to how i  expected and how i want them to

20. What plans do you make from now onwards?
Nothing come across my mind

Apologies

My posts are getting shorter and shorter...

In heart,
I accepted his apologies,
Its just that i do not want to show it.

Don't accuse me of being selfish.
Let him suffer from the haunts of his guilt for once,
As i suffered from the threats and teases.

Let them be pleas for forgiveness,
than more threats.

Be assure i wont go overboard,
It will only last for a few days.
He challenged me anyway,
saying i cant ignore him for long.
I can and if i am compel to,
i will.

What i dare not or did not say,
are far more significant than what i said,
and they are best left unsaid.

No Name

To S32n,

I'm Anonymous,
No Name.

You have my trust the least.

My thoughts are mine,
Why should i confide to you.

I provoked someone

I didnt know how i enraged my friend,
It was an issue of trust and friendship.
It didnt go well.

At first,
I trusted him with all my heart.
As time goes by,
the trust that i have for him,
went astray.
In return for my friendship and trust
He accused me.
It wasnt long that he somehow betrayed me,
Well...it was imminent.
He did not completely betray me,
He exposed a crack in me,
to someone else.
A small crack in a glass,
will eventually break it completely.

People's mind are unpredictable,
He reveals one small crack,
Who knows how it will end up.

Accusation continued,
Suspicion between two of us.
It was his final straw,
He had enough.
I think i might have ravaged something,
in him.
I provoked him.
I dont know what to say,
Should i be the one who should be mad,
Or him?
It was clearly him who made the 1st move,
He took action instead of discussion.

After he left,
i felt empty.
My thoughts went blank,
Completely.
It doesnt seem it happened.
All my cares for everything about me

And him,
disappears.

In every story ,
Whenever death comes around,
An angel will descend at some point.
It is as though they are burdened to deliver bad news.
Something as graceful as an angel,
Was burdened to take a soul,
Leaving the soul's companions,
with grieving mourns.

Maybe im the same,
Im burdened with my secrets,
Whenever they leak,
My companions shall carry one of my burden.
In the end,
They'll end up in fury and sadness.

*Hey, sorry man ...
i dont know if i should be the one apologising,
but....i dont know...i dont care about it anymore
Well....for now i guess...
Maybe my patience's limits are beyond yours,
And you have reached it,
but i have yet,
Even though u keep pissing and annoying me,
for so long......it did not come close to my limit.....
Truce?
 

School starts over

The holiday ended,
My enjoyment eventually faded.

Being in school,
Makes me look like a fool.
Friends seem so unreal,
Threatens, False Statements,
Yet again repeated.
Although i accepted them with equaminity,
My heart rushes with anger.
I dont aspire to hurt,
But i emanated dislike.
It continues,
It was futile to retaliate,
So i chose with Ignorance.
Guess what,
More insults.

It was the first day,
Classmates are full of joy,
with tales to tell.
Continuous of cacophony in the class,
It doesnt bother me much.
It's good to see them so joyous,
I kept sullen,
Observing every single events that happen.
All i can see are laughter.
But that doesnt last too long though,
With the announcement of results,
made some of the students
sad and some rejoiced.

So the day ended with elation and lamentations.
 

CampFire

It was the best night i ever had,
The rain almost ruin it,
but some of the incidents make it joyous.
the only thing i regret,
was not bringing a camera.

There were singing, dancing, jokes, and a fesyen show.
Im only interested in the singing and dancing,
The singing soothes me and watching them sing,
it made me amazed.

While the performances were commencing,
i saw 1 couple actually sitting closely,
on the 2 storey high bamboo built fortress ( kinda).
I wonder what they are doing,
You?


Later, we got to let ourselves go wild and dance,
Most of the girl guides had their fun.
I didnt really dance like them,
i just blended in a little.
It was a few dances,
they keep telling the crowd to come,
upfront to the stage to dance.

In the 1st dance,
i actually saw one of my primary schoolmate,
Hahas,
She was having fun.
At least i get to see one of the many,
scattered primary friends.

Something surprised me though,
in the following dance,
A girl guide hit me on the hand while im dancing.
What was that about,
i think she must have regconise the wrong person.

But the most interesting thing has yet to come,
You think the campfire its just having fun !?
Well,
You're wrong.
1 of my friend, lets jus call him, WY.
He liked a girl and she was here.
The girl sms-ed him to go into the crowd and dance.
We didnt really know where she is,
and WY was clueless on how to dance.
As some of us went scouting for her,
some stayed advising him,
" Just jump and shake and have fun "

She was one of the groups of girls dancing,
One of other WY friends recognise the wrong person,
He told us it was her and we pushed WY to the group.
But it was not her,
how embarassing.

Finally we found her,
Again we pushed WY to her.
No turning back now eh?
After a few attempts of running away,
WY finally gave in and went for it.
You know what?
They held hands and danced together closely,
We were also there beside him to support too.
We dance a few songs away.
And in the end,
after the last song was played,
We shouted " Hold Hands"
(not that they are not holding already)
We wanted to make it more exciting,
To see them blush!

After that we all went back to our seats,
i dont really know what happen next,
Its up to him.
But the last sms i got from him,
when i asked him how was it,
was" Haha..lol..So dead"