Flashback

Played a few games of " Pikaball" with S32n,
It was easy to win against him.
Somehow
While im playing,
Flashbacks of my past in my primary school,
appear before me.

Everyone had played this game before in their life,
mostly in their primary schools,
maybe that's what made me recall those times.

When i think back,
The image of me there,
I wanted to just punched myself out,
For i see my self as a naive, inexperience jerk,
But it was beyond reach...

I played jokes,
Make fun of people.
I even laugh at people when they are in pain,
Furthermore ,
they were girls.....
Against boys,
I fought for honour,
but now,
I see it as a childish act,
merely a fight among boys,
unnecessary actions...
I was absolutely ignorant.

Maybe that is what made who i am today,
i totally changed,
I tried to keep my cool firmly,
Assuring i would not repeat the things ,
That may be my eternal regrets.
Seeking self-forgiveness and redemption.