Lost my cool

In the end of the camp,
The seniors said that they are not satisfied with my attitude.
When i reflected myself,
I actually lost my cool
I somehow overdid it during the games we played.
I regretted.

It is as though there's a beast inside me,
the only thing restraining it from rampaging
is my mask,
and this one broke.

In the older post, [Deception]
" I felt weird,
Why do i have the will to win the game,
and actually did all those deceptions,
to achieve it."
i think i had found the answer...
Maybe then,
the beast inside me has already started manifesting.


My fellings are ambiguous now.
The blames are on me,
And i shall accept them willingly.

I shall change,
cooler and colder than ever,
A mask of ice,
to face them from now on.
The hope i have ,
is to gain back the honour i once had.